My mind seems to have a never ending list of pros and cons for everything currently happening to me in my life. I feel like I am having to look very closely at everything right now and evaluate it. So many changes have happened in my life so quickly. And I think it has overwhelmed me...a little. Caused me to be more fragile than normal instead of my perky self. Being uprooted from my apartment with my friends. Moving back home away from everyone, good thing Corey came back! But it's all getting better as I have gotten a better grip on things, and have come to understand why things happen in my life and what is going to happen from here.
Australia is starting to freak me out a bit to be honest. Everytime I tell someone about it at work it sounds so exciting. But then when I really think about....being away from everyone (except Missy thank goodness) for sooooooooo long. I hope I'll manage. I guess I will have to. Flying 21 hours alone. In a strange country. Different culture. At least the language is pretty similar for the most part! Just seeing how I can get overwhelmed and how it effects me makes me pray that it won't happen when I go to Australia. No more losing weight for me right Corey and Kelly? It's coming back though. I've gained 2 pounds! I eat ice cream every night and 4 meals a day. I'm trying :)
But overall I think that the pros of spending 3 and 1/2 months there will be worth every single con. I mean 3 and 1/2 months is nothing compared to the rest of my life. And I will be able to travel to places that I can remember for the rest of my life. Usually I am a laid back person and very calm cool and collected. Sometimes I let myself and my thoughts run wild and then they get the best of me. But I have started to see my cool as a cucumber self return recently.
